It’s the end of the day (11:43 PM exactly) and I’ve been contemplating all day what to write about. It has suddenly dawned on me as sit to read a book… I’ve learned that today has been a day of learning to trust. There are so many reason why.
For one, I’ve recently felt like maybe God has left my corner. Things aren’t going just as I’ve had planned…in so many areas, I might add.
I was about to sit down to read a book on how to build a non-profit (might as well have been a “self-help” book of sorts), when it hit me… why don’t I go to God first? I’m so busy trying to figure things out on my own, or through others, never stopping to ask the One who has laid out this path for me. It’s like getting in a car to go on a trip then turning off your GPS. You have a GPS (or some do anyway) so why don’t you use it? I feel that way, at this very moment, about God. HE is the one with the answers… HE is the one with the plan… He is the one with ability to get me through, so why don’t I tap into that? Is it because I don’t feel the answers come quickly enough? Is it that I lack the trust to believe He will and can do what He said He can do? Maybe that’s it; I don’t know.
What I do know is: I can do NOTHING without Him. Not one single thing. The tough part is when I don’t feel He’s there; the part when I felt He’s left my corner to go and be with the other fighters in this world; the part when I feel like a child lost in the crowd who is crying out for her father and yet the voices of strangers overshadow the voice of love and desperation.
But then I have to go back to my original thought: I’m on this trip… this long journey, and I’m not sure how to get there exactly, so why don’t I just turn on my GPS and let it lead the way?
I wonder: Have you ever felt like you’ve lost your way?
